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Mikey and I got married yesterday (June 21st, 2008)! Everything went great despite the make-up person being an hour late and the 90+ degree heat. Even our dogs behaved perfectly. I will try to post a few pictures and some more details sometime soon. We're off to the Meditteranean on our honeymoon for a cruise/stay in Spain and will be gone about 4 weeks. :)

So my monotonous yet stressful life of teaching was excited tonight by a visitor. My neighbor Laurie's chicken decided to pay a visit to my tiny backyard. I came home and saw it fly up onto my fence as Luna, Terra and I walked up and I figured it'd go home of its own accord. I took the excited puppies inside and forgot about it. An hour later the puppies wanted to go out. I let them figuring they had to go bathroom. They started barking like they always do when they go out. Soon after, they were still barking so I called the dogs inside then went out to see what was going on. One of my other neighbors was in my yard and told my the puppies had chased a chicken under the tarps where we keep our kayak. The neighbor was sure Luna had killed it, but based on the fact there were relatively few feathers around I figured she hadn't gotten a good hold of it and the chicken had gotten away.
I walked over to another neighbor's house (the one who I knew to own chickens) and regretfully told her that I had one of her chickens trapped in my yard and that my dogs may have injured her. Though I have dealt with chickens when I was growing up, I wasn't about to chase this one out of hiding when it could be a vicious rooster for all I knew. She came over to my yard and we uncovered the poor shaking hen who was still panting with fright. She should make a full recovery though Laurie has a feeling she won't be laying eggs for a few days.

I graduated this past weekend.
I turned 21 the weekend before that.
I'm finally back in Morgan Hill, unpacking and enjoying not having anything in the world that I have to do.

In the words of my Outdoor Adventures group, I'm...
~Livin' the Life~

She is a little more gung-ho about it than me, but I'll give you her opinion straight up anyway.

"Pride and Prejudice is GOD. If you don’t see it, I will hunt you down and force you to go watch it. There is this one scene, WOW. The whole thing is like CRACK!!! I think you get my point. That is all. 9:33PM Nov 4th, 2005"
~Emily

Gotta love free sneak peaks. The director was there and talked to us a little. He's a cool guy, I hope he appreciated the incredibly enthusiastic audience response.

And since I type 'just' as 'jsut' every single time, I call it my malopropism and I'm not going to bother to fix it anymore. I wish I had my doggie here with me now. My only doggie... Note to self, need to make cool pictures with weekend with photoshop. I can do so much better than these simple touchups on this picture. Something to look forward to, but what to do? A collage, a portrait, integrated pictures...? So many things to daydream about when I should be working.

I went on another OA trip this weekend, snowshoeing again, but with participants instead of with the other guides. Guides vs participants and the trip becomes at the opposite end of the spectrum on my enjoyment level. Granted, there were a ton of key moments that still make me giggle, like getting the van stuck or getting a mile ride on the back of some snow mobile, but overall the trip was incredibly draining and I'm exhausted from it.
Day One: I arrive on time to pick up site. Four of the participants don't show up till 40 minutes later, Thomas, Michael, Chris, and Scotty. And I'll finish this later as I have to go to class now.

My english class is dismal for me, especially since we're doing poems now and Shakespear later, so the B- on my last paper kinda hurt, and made me work a bit harder on this next paper due tomorrow. So, I decided to ask any of you with some poetry experience or just plain time on your hands to take a look at my finished paper, including the prompt and poem it's based off of and tell me any significant changes I could make, including grammer, to make it better.
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Selfishness is not a trait that people either working with children or in a leadership position should display. God knows we all feel selfish at times in these roles, but not doing anything selfish is the key part.
I got my butt out of bed at 5:35 this morning to help take about 70 kids and 10 parents on a whale watching trip with OA for a program called "gear up" which takes minority middle school and high school kids on trip rock climbing, backpacking, whale watching, skiing, etc. The day went pretty well at first. We got to the school on time, got the kids their muffins and juice for breakfast and got them on the two charter buses. We got to the ocean, played ice breakers which they really seemed to enjoy. my group even got into a hot potato game, which I didn't expect was something their age group would do. Once on the boat though, things went sour pretty fast. The 'gear up' leader immediately felt sick to her stomach and complained of dry heaving, though I never saw her looking sick at all, just cranky and whiney. A few kids threw up, but oddly enough most were still in good spirits regardless. We saw two whales spouting, which was cool, but soon after this event, when the whales were still rather far away. The leader, named Dr. O, put up such a fuss that everyone felt sick that she lead to the boat being turned around. Once back, she told all the kids that some people didn't feel well and the situation wasn't really safe and not everyone was having fun. All of which was fudged. She felt sick. Not one of the other kids so much as told anyone they felt ill, just threw up over the side and went back to their friends.
The day wasn't a total bust, but there were more low points than that :( which aren't important. I just feel bad for the kids rather frustrating morning when instead of 2 hours on the water they barely got 45 minutes and only two whales when they were supposed to see a bunch. Bummer.

We finished watching sex in the city tonight. All 6 seasons dusted. As to what we're going to entertain ourselves with next, I don't know. It was highly entertaining though, the last season was by far the best, as it hit on the reality of life instead of the reality of relationships. Though I guess that's how life goes, first we only focus on the things like love and relationships, until life actually starts and we realize there's so much more than those things- so much more. But dude, thinking only abouot relationships is so much easier than thinking about life. Every time I think about life I start to give myself an anxiety attack. The sad thing is, that's not a joke. I can do so many things in a day, but when it comes to working towards something real I hate my life and want to give up and hit the sheets. For instance, whether I want to apply for education grad school or optometry school, either way I need to decide NOW. Applications go in ASAP and I haven't even started looking at the processes or thinking about taking the damn tests, tests I can't even think of the name of now but know they aren't the MCATs, thank God. But if I don't do all this NOW, then why the fuck am I trying to graduate early, should I give up that idea and plan on taking three years and a quarter, maybe a quarter abroad? It'd give me a few more months to do anything about this stuff, but what would I do the rest of the year? Would I take it as a break? Would I go with that rolling admitance and start that next January? Even before all that, can I even handle the rest of college. I got an F on my bio class midterm, the only midterm for that class. If I don't do really well on the final, I'll have to retake the class, and as hard as I did honestly study for that test, maybe I'm not really a bio person at heart. I should have headed my fear of needles a long time ago and done soc. But I know that's not me either.
I'm not like that. One choice? I couldn't even stick with one major hobby. I had to try everything, camping rock climbing, horseback riding, boy surfing (riding), soccer, volleyball, cross country, needle work, reading, movies, the brief TV phase, DDR... etc. To ask me to pick one major and one career for life is absurd. I'm not that passionate about anything. I'm not that opinionated about anything. Well, except maybe that life's not fair, but now I'm jsut whineing.
Is it sad that right now the only job I'm actually interested in is working for a planned parenthood or equivalent clinic? But I can't do that since I can't drive to one to volunteer, and I don't have a nursing degree nor will I anytime soon due to the needle phobia problem, so I can't be one of their nurse type people.
ALl I know is I want to help people, and right now, from the perspective of myself and my friends and my era, that seems a great place to help. Being a teacher, you're trying to help those who don't want any help, often. PP is for people already asking for help, and maybe I could help them. And for some reason, that seems like a type of job I could handle, stressful or not. I'm so tired of being competitive, that seems like a place I wouldn't have to be.
If there is no hurry in life, why can't I try as many jobs as I did hobbies? Oh yes, becuase once you hit an age you don't have time anymore to experiment.

First off, four day weekends are so wonderful that I really forget how I got along without them. Forget the fact that two days a week absolutely suck in comparison, those four days are still great.
Last night mikey and I got off our butts and put away the Sex in the CIty episodes and went camping. Not to far away, nothing too fancy, but it was still great. We went to Malibu State Park where the price was a little steep, but the place was gorgeous, we even put the tent on GRASS which made it so soft and my tent didn't even get dirty despite forgetting a tarp. The most memorable moments were the gorgeous sunset from the highway, Mikey spilling half the spegetti while draining it, and snuggling up for a night of absolute SILENCE after the last few nights being filled with more Meg, Michael, Emily, and Dandan laughter and giggling. If only it were cheaper I'd go every weekend. I too much enjoy my alone time to be such a city girl. Just think of how it feels when you climb a mountain and reach the top. Yes, half the awe is of the view, but isn't part of the feeling from the enjoyment of literally GETTING AWAY from it all.